CrossFit: Afraid to go back?

This is probably NOT about what you think. It has nothing to do with first-timers, being intimidated, looming doubts after your first class…

It has everything to do with missing a few days, and being afraid to get your @$$ handed to you the next time you walk in that door.

I’m not injured. I didn’t go on vacation. It simply started with the need for a day or two off. A bag of potato chips here… half a pack of Oreos there… less-than-necessary sleep… all combined with general laziness… has made for an interesting 3 days. And by “interesting,” I really mean completely boring & demotivating. Ugh.

I’ve been in a funk before, so this isn’t really anything new. The difference with this one is that CrossFit is waiting for me on the other side. And for some reason, that kind of scares the crap out of me.

Realistically, how much fitness can you lose in 3 days? Not much. While the workout might be a little shocking at first, it shouldn’t feel like my first few weeks did.

Maybe I’ve really enjoyed being lonely the past few days, with limited social interaction (I’m an introvert. It’s what we do sometimes.) And I’m nervous to re-enter a highly social atmosphere again. Seriously, though, it’s been 3 DAYS! Get over it!

Or maybe this feeling of fear is an indication that I’ve been spending too much time at CrossFit lately. Why else would 3 days feel like an insurmountable length of time to bounce back from?

Or are the movements getting more advanced now that I’ve been doing it for a while? And I’m not up for the challenge of completing them. The weights are getting heavier. The expectations are rising. Could it be that I’m afraid of the difficulty & intensity of the workouts… the same difficulty & intensity that got me interested in the first place?

If you couldn’t tell by now, I’m conflicted. I don’t know the answer, and I have no idea what tonight’s class will feel like. Or the next one. Or the one after that.

Maybe… just maybe… I should stop thinking so much & just go do something I enjoy with people whom I enjoy even more? Yeah… let’s try that.

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